The M Situation

Well it's official, my love life is a complete tangle.. been seeing this guy for bout a month now over here in bristol and my bejayus is he heavy or what (don't mean in the fat sence)... he's talking about moving over to belfast when i'm goin back, is using the dreaded L word and is just way to clingy and needy, yes a girl likes some attention, nothing worse than meeting someone thats doesn't call or has intermitted interest and now i've met someone to the other extreme i don't really like it, am i just being awkard? all of my girly mates are so jealous of him and keep telling me i'm so lucky but sometimes even a girl likes the thrill of the chase, when it's handed to you on a plate you feel like you've lost the whole thrill of the challenge, gawd i'm such a guy when it comes to relationships... but really shouldn't it be my job to be pressuring him to commit... ( which for the record i would never do anyway). oh i dunno, my mate danielle has been telling me i'm scared of relationships which i suppose if you look at this case study is true (but the suggestion of counselling is goin a bit far in my opinion danielle) think the whole thing can be brought down to the fact that i'm not settling for a half assed relationship... i wanna be head over heels with someone and want to spend time with them, it shouldn't be this hard, and neither should i have to be searching really hard to feel something for someone that poss isn't there, at the minute i sometimes feel like it's a chore to go and meet him and do the girlfriendy boyfriendy stuff... anyway i'm all confused and right now i'm looking forward to getting back to belfast to chill out and meet up with everyone again.. so roll on christmas hols is what i say.... enough of this luvvy duvvy baloney...